Hi Everyone,
 We had a very busy day here at the McNamara household. I took Liam for his first evaluation at The Center for Behavior Intervention, and he HATED it, the caps are not big enough to tell you how much he HATED it!!! It started out fine, actually we had the best morning we've had in a while. We got there at about noon and were greeted by one of the wonderful owners, Stephanie, I liked her right away, Liam went off with a therapist to start to be begin his journey, and I went with Stephanie to get things started on my end. After about 20 minutes Stephanie left the room to go get something, when she came back in she told me Liam had run out of the building, got in my van, and was throwing Pepsi cans at his therapist. I waited about 5 minutes and then I went out there. Liam had found a 12 pack of his Pepsi in the back of the van and used it as a weapon. I got him back in the building, and he went back in the gym. I must say the staff there were wonderful. I answered a bunch of questions, filled out a bunch of forms, toured the school, and got some great info. For the first time I feel like we are on the right track, I'm just not sure because it seems too good, if that makes sense.
Our life around here has been hell, and the chaos is taking its toll on everyone. I feel like these people will help us take back control. To all of you people that know my parenting style, I'm pretty no nonsense. I just have no idea when I lost control. Or did I ever have control??? I cannot wait to start getting some calm back into our home. I know we are going to always have to work at this, it just doesn't need to be this hard all the time.
We are going 3 times this week, and they are going to do therapy in out house. Stephanie told me the best and quickest way was to go there and do home visits, they regain control, and then transfer it to us. Sounds like a plan to me!!!!
Liam can't tell me enough how much he hates it. I love that. He knows these people are on to him, he's not going to get out of this one. I LOVE it!!! If he liked it, I would be worried, just another person that let him do what he wants.
The kids there were so calm, so compliant, everything I want for our house. Also they don't believe in restraining  the kids, they also talked so nice to them, and no it wasn't because I was there, I could tell.
Right now I wish I could fast forward this part of our life to a part I know is going to be better!!
On a different note I was laying down with Maura tonight and when I said goodnight I love you very much, in a very sleepy voice she said I love you more. Thats why I fight for my kids and want to make the best possible home for them, because we all deserve it!!! We love each other, and we are going to fight this monster called Aspergers that tries to rob us of all things good. I'm a little bitter at the moment, and ready for a fight!!
Thanks for reading, now get off this computer and do something constructive!!!
Love you all,
 Dawn